Rikku911

I never wanted to leave her. How could someone so strong, so free, so beautiful... Look so helpless? We have spoken through messages and texts for over a month. But when I finally get to see her, She's broken, crushed, and crying. I've always hated it when someone would cry in front of me. Its like they want me to fix there problems for them. It pisses me off to no end. But with her... All I want to do is grab ahold of her and never let go. I wanted to hug her and hold onto her, until the earth crumbled beneath our feet. She clung to me as if I were her only lifeline. Her only source of comfort. The only one who cared for her,

Can I be the one? Must I always have to stay? Do I always have to be there? To be where? I can't handle this. Anymore. I don't wanna be the cause. I don't wanna be the death of you. The death of me. But I can't find it in my heart to, Break apart The feelings, Of what we are Of what we were My Pride can't take this anymore. Broken so much before. I can't take this Anymore. I don't want to be the problem Of my surrender To your will. And if I can't be the one Then I just won't be nothing To you And If I just don't stop you Then my pride Will nothing Will be gone Will be the problem Of my excistance Like you.

The time I've wasted is my biggest regret. Spending time in places I'll never forget. Just sitting and thinking about the things I have done. The crying, the laughing, the hurt, and the fun. Now, it's just me dealing with my hard-driven guilt. Behind a wall of emptiness I've allowed to be built. I'm trapped in my mind, just wanting to run, Back to my youth where there's laughter and fun. But, the chase is over and there's no place to hide. So much is gone, Including my pride. With reality suddenly right in my face, I'm scared, alone and stuck in this "place". Now, memories of the past flash through my head, And the pain is obvio